Trying not to cry

Lately, my mom had been a bit better, she still has her nervous ticks every day, and the past two weeks, she had been sobbing at least twice every day.

She went to a new doctor, and her doctor thought she was wayyyyy too skinny, and required her to have a pee test for drugs, and a blood test. I think my moms craziness came through with our doctor, so she thought my mom was on drugs. 

Well her doctor decided to take her off the meds that keep my mom somewhat sane, because my mom IS addicted to them. The doctor refuses to give my mom her meds, which i am glad for, she was taking as many as she wanted. 

Bottom line, shes going through withdrawal. Shes crying every single day, sometimes sobbing at night, and talking to herself and the cat. Sometimes she yells at herself. Its really odd. 

Well, she has been asking me for the past week to help her trim the cats nails (which really means i do them all by myself)

And every single time she asks me, i am always busy. Well we were looking through coupons, and she found one for de-clawing. She said "HEY, we can de-claw her!" For a second i thought she was joking, and i looked at her face, and she looked completely serious in a really creepy crazy way. 

I should have just got up and walked away, but i got angry and said , "why are you even thinking about that? That is really inhumane." I'm starting to think she said it just to get a reaction out of me. Well she said "well, you never want to trim her claws, so I'm going to de-claw her."

First of all, de-clawing is extremely painful for a cat, and our cat is 7 years old! Kittens are the ones who get de-clawed, not 7-year old cats.

She was really pissing me off, and said that i never want to trim her claws. But i tried to tell her that i have just been busy, and id gladly help when i have free time. 

We don't even have the proper nail clippers, we could use human nail clippers, but i would be worried that id cut too short.

So she started yelling at me. Time to go into hibernation mode. -goes into room, barricades door-

She yells at me through the door how ungrateful i am, and she said "i was having such a wonderful peaceful day, and then i picked you up and you have been nothing but rude to me." I tried to make a conversation with her in the car, told her about my day, but she either didn't say anything, or she pretended to listen to me. 

She said that she revolves her life around me, and tries her hardest to make me happy, and does the good old guilt trip, saying that she stays here for me to go to school and see drew. I doubt shed be any other place than here.

At that point id had enough of her manipulation, and grabbed my headphones and blasted them.

Tomorrow is thanks giving. Thank god I'm going to my dads for the weekend.